Decrepify the misfortune. Realign and Rennovate

I just caught myself doing something very very strange.

I was demotivated. I was captured. I wasn't feeling whole and normal. I was falling prey to that insensible of frustrations that I had told myself would never bother me again. I had slipped. I had slumped. I was down but not destroyed. I realize now what a line I nearly crossed.

I caught myself qualifying myself to somebody!

Wrong thinking begets wrong attitudes, wrong directions, wrongness in general.

I've been miserable lately truly and totally. My beloved darling dear is far away. I'm working more than twice that I ever have before. I was shaken for a while and I never really felt my normal self while I was cast adrift.

There was a problem. I knew existed but I couldn't figure out what it was or where it came from.

It dawned on me today why I've been feeling so hopeless. Why I've been doing so poorly. Why my head has been so cloudy. I've been shadowed and obscured. My vision has been poor, my mind has been misguided. My North Star has hidden itself behind a deep dark nebula obscura.

To beauty of frustration such as this is the simplicity of its true defeat. And I? I have defeated it!

The Future of Open Ended Emaculate Frustration..

I am the streetlight.

The bright one on the corner.

The one that flickers.